Excuses...excuses

I'm really not trying to avoid blogging. My life has kind of been turned upside down the past few weeks. Things haven't exactly settled down either, so I'm just hanging on by a thread...

Anyway...I bet you didn't think it was possible to gain 15lbs in two weeks, but that is what I've done. 

Current Weight: 310 lbs 

I know it's not healthy, but that is where I'm at, and it's the result of some major emotional eating. 

I thought I had a better understanding of myself and had gained some control over my emotional connection with food, but obviously I was dreaming. I'm not giving up, but I've got to work through this rough spot. 

Shamefully Yours - Fattie

Week 4: 1.5 down 149.5 to go

Wow - things have been crazy busy. I know it's not the holidays yet, but I feel like I'm already in that holiday rush mode.

Anyway, I did weigh in on Thursday and was down 1.5 pounds to 295lbs...better than I thought considering I didn't eat as well as I should have.

I went to a bridal shower and had too many "oopsies" to count, but let's just say intead of sticking to spinach salad and fruit salad I also had to eat finger sandwiches and chocolates.

Someday I'm going to get this right.

Week 3: 2 lbs down 151 lbs to go

It's weigh-in Thursday, and I was expecting to have gained, because this two week Phase 1 of the South Beach diet is a challenge for me. I must not be eating enough vegetables, because I am still experiencing hunger...or cravings...or whatever it is. Three times I ate things I should not have...and one of those was last night. I was workinng (at night) and hunger and exhaustion took over.

Sometimes I think when my body is really tired it's natural response is to want food in order to give it more energy when it really only needs sleep. So, what did I do...I went to the bloody vending machine. As you all know most vending machines don't stock vegetables, but I could have at least gone for the healthiest snack in there: a granola bar. But NOOOO I had to go for these chocolate, peanut-butter waffer cookie things. I actually felt sick after eating it. BAD choice. Not to mention that I only worked out twice this week.

Unfortuantely, I know my body too well, and I think my next week's weigh-in is going to pay for this past week of stupidity. I'm going to see if I can make-up for it with some longer workouts.

Week 2: 0 lbs down 153.5 pounds to go

Today is weigh-in day! The scale read: 298.5.

I used to dread getting on the scale, but when I know on most occasions that the numbers will be lower each time I step on the scale then I look forward to it. I was expecting a little gain this time because of my stupid all-day binge on Sunday. But, amazingly my weight has stayed the same, and hopefully only this one time. I hope next Thursday will bring lesser numbers. I suppose that is up to me, isn't it?!

Week1: 13.5lbs down 153.5 to go

Well, I'm not surprised but I am excited! I've lost 13.5 pounds in one week!

Okay, I know this is normally not a healthy weight loss, but you have to know where I'm coming from. I do not expect this kind of loss every week. In the past the first week is always a big loss, because prior eating habits make me bloat so bad. So, the first week is usually a lot of water weight...and my body knows how to carry it. Case in point: after giving birth to my son last year I lost 45lbs in 2 weeks...ALL WATER I retained while pregnant.

I'm also going to give myself a little credit...some of the weight I lost this past week is more than just water. I ate REALLY well and worked hard at it. I wanted to spend this first week just focusing on getting started and understanding my eating habits. The food diary has helped a lot with that.

So, I'm off to a good start!